Am I just not into the artsy shit anymore, or do I just not have time for it? Does caffeine add hours to the day.. Yeah, I know the answer to that, but then why does it feel like it does? Can't there be anything good for you that numbs feeling and gives you time instead of just taking it up? I'm only 21 and I feel like I'm rushing to my death just to try to fit everything and everyone in. Since when is hey, lets grab breakfast together, and then hang out to watch movies all day or do homework together something you have to pencil in? Since when is time an event you have to jot down in the planner? Schedule time to sleep, to eat, to pay bills, to get the money to pay bills, to see family, and maybe sometimes a friend, homework, school. Seriously, what the fuck man. And in reference to my last entry.. how can you be alone so much, but never have any time to see a familiar, comforting face?